DAY 683 - JANUARY 22, 2013

With hard black eyes you tell the men about your involvement with Jabhat Al Nusra and that, comparatively, the men are just a gang of children. You tell them that Al Nusra is an organized army of heartless killers and that the Jihadists will torture them to death, that they will put thousands of cigarettes out on their bodies until they are only smoldering black ash. You don't know where these words are coming from but they seem to come so easily that it scares you. The leader, however, says he already knows all about Al Nusra, but he also knows that they aren't here with you right now. He sticks the barrel of his Kalashnikov into your cheek and says that they are the Badr Martyrs Brigade and that you now fight for them.